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AC and I desperately need to get back to work. Obviously, I haven't been able to work during all this, but as soon as the home support is in place I should be able to work full days during the week. AC's work is physical labour and he's had a broken hand for 3 months, but the cast is off now, and as soon as he gets a few checkups and physio he should be able to go back to work too. So as long as we don't meet up with any more major snags, and as long as we can actually find work in this current job market, we hope to both be working by the end of February.

I haven't applied for any jobs yet, but I have started browsing what's available in my field. One thing I was looking forward to about coming back to the city was to be able to get well-paid, challenging work in my field, which I couldn't really find in a small town. I've found lots of cool job postings in various industries for my line of work, which is business management and administration. I would normally try to find a job as an executive assistant, project manager, event/travel planner, or department manager of some sort.

But it suddenly dawned on me that it may not be healthy for me to do such jobs. They are fast-paced and challenging. I normally love that kind of work environment, but I realize now that it would be unhealthy for me to have a stressful job given the stress and responsibility I have at home now. So I may need to find a more menial job with less responsibility than I'm used to.

This realization is disappointing. At 39, I had really hoped that I could have a few more years to advance my career. Living in rural BC for the last few years has really set back my career path, and I was looking forward to catching up. Furthermore, I have worked for years to gain a certain level of recognition and respect for the work that I do, and I haven't reached the level I hoped to attain yet. Now it looks like I may have to give up that dream.

But if I have to give up a dream, at least I know it's for a very good reason: My mom needs me. Still, it's another unexpected turn of events that keeps surprising me how Alzheimer's/dementia affects our lives.